Blessing and a Curse

We all have our passions - our true talents - that are undeniably part of who we are. And though it takes most of us a lifetime to hone them, we are always aware that they constantly call to us. On-lookers make envious comments like, "Oh, you're so lucky to be so talented in that way." But those who have a calling, a passion, know that it is both a blessing and a curse. Creativity seldom sleeps, so when she is so moved to move you...you move! It is not a thing to pencil into one's Day Runner, but rather a breath of life breathed into your days causing fury and madness and wonderful fulfillment. So, when life becomes more about other people (especially small, needy people) than yourself, creativity becomes a burden of sorts to bare until a time comes when all the needs of all the others are satisfied and you can devote yourself to your own calling to creativity. This is why the song below, "Just for Now" is my new "theme song". It's the feeling that I have when I get to work on Amy's Own projects or any myriad of other perpetual art projects stashed in my mind and in my art bins - the feeling of escaping to my own time, my own space...just for now...not forever (nor even for very long), but just for now. Don't get me wrong...I'm exactly where I want to be, doing what I want to be doing; but I do a great balancing act to keep things that way. I bet you do, too.